The Rock Band Model

In the spring of 2011 Grantmakers in the Arts published the now famous Rebecca Novick article “Please don’t start a theatre company.”  Two years before the article, in Chicago, there was a statistic (that I will paraphrase terribly) that there were something like 200 small to mid-size theatre companies in the city, up from something like 50 in a 10-year period.

Whoa.

So in 2008 and the years following grant funding for startup theaters dwindled, and when we heard talk of theaters shutting their doors you had to remember that it was in the context of a few very small companies out of more than a hundred.  Competition remained very stiff for very small pieces of pie, and by 2011 people like Rebecca urged us artists to think, “what could we build instead?” and “does the administrative model really fit the mission (of the artist).”  Some evaluated. Some changed. Some gave up and left.  But one thing is still very much the same: In the original “non-profit theatre model” companies, started 30-40 years ago, positions of power are largely held by people who got into them 20-30 years ago.  The word on the street is that someone has to die for a younger (think “under 35 years old”) person to get into a real, artistic, sustainable position in a large theatre company.  The large majority of up-coming artists (and consider that each university that has a theatre major will graduate 10-20 design-arts based students EVERY YEAR) are still banging at the door with our tin cups.

I, of course, fall into this cup banging category, having sat outside the doors of theaters in both Chicago and Boston waiting for someone to drop me some coins.  A mid-career artist, I’m starting to want things like a home that I own, children, and (very soon) a new car to replace the one I’ve had for the last 12 years.  But there’s no where for me to go.  I’m to old for unpaid internships, have too many adult expenses for the wildly unpredictable freelance career, and too broke already to go after an advanced degree.  Where else is a theatre artist to turn?   Lately I’ve started to think a lot about what Rebecca calls the “rock-band model” of theatre production, which relies on self-promotion, grassroots fundraising, and banding together loosely to get a job done, without creating all the structure of a non-profit theatre.  I’m attracted to this model and excited to try it out.  There’s just one big problem: TIME.

Between the unrelated-to-theatre 9-5 day job that I hold down in order to pay my rent and put gas in my car, the part time production management I do because (even though they don’t pay me) it’s the only production management opening in town, and the freelance prop design I do because that’s the real art that I enjoy, there is no time to research other “rock band model” companies, let alone go visit them.  There is no time to write my own material or visit venues or make connections.  It’s enough trouble to work all day, work all night, feed the cat, and stumble into bed, only to get up and do it all again the next day.

Everyone I know is in the same boat.  The boat is sinking.

The Dance Party

The floor is sticky.  My shoes attach with every step and then release with a squish.  They’re bike shoes – not heels: they’re little flat waterproof things that I wear to bike and then change out of when I get to my destination.  But I have not brought anything to change into.  Everyone else is in heels.

We’ve gone out to a dance club on the Saturday before Halloween.  It’s a birthday party and we’re not in costume, though most of the people around us are.  The man dressed as bacon is my favorite.  Then there’s a delicate fellow leaning on the railing playing what appears to be a old-school Gameboy with a book light attached.  And three Pandas.  Three.  The Pandas are enormous men – at least 250 pounds each – and they’re dancing with women in this way that seems to be a trend this night – one person bending over and putting their butt in the air, the other person rubbing their groin area against it.  I don’t understand, and this position is causing me to knock my knees into people’s heads as I make my way around the room.

I try to dance.  It’s impossible.  a.) I can’t dance.  b.) there’s not room on this dance floor to dance.  One of the people I’m with knows how to salsa and we try, but there isn’t room even to take the step back.  We give up and grind like everyone else.  Someone spills their drink on my feet.  One of the Pandas knocks his head into my knees.  I look up, and he’s dancing with a… a… bride of Frankenstein (?) whose breasts are held up in a corset and strapless dress so tight and so wired that they sit out in front of her like a shelf under her chin.  Later, I catch her making out with a skeleton.

It sounds like hell, right?  It sounds like the beginning of the usual “awkward-girl-goes-to-trendy-party” story, right?  It’s not.  Here’s what happened:

The person with the birthday?  That’s the person I love.  And even with sticky feet and even with my elbows knocking against strange creatures and even being completely out of my element… there’s still love.  Love means a lot.  Love means sometimes you do things that are not your favorite, and you put up with craziness, and you stay up late.  But then there’s that kiss… and it’s all worth it.  And I know the person I love will do the same for me – in fact, has done the same on many other occasions.  We dance together and the world disappears.  It’s a pretty good dance party after all.